I feel angsty.

Goddamnit, I just feel dark. Not depressed, or angry, or bitchy. Just... Sort of angsty. I'm just philosophical and thoughtful me again, like how I was though the whole seventh and eighth grade.

I'm addicted to Tim Burton again, just in time for Christmas. I just finished watching Edward Scissorhands not 15 minutes ago, for the first time in ten years. I'm old enough now to really appreciate it, since I was only four or five the first time I watched it. Then,I was young and Edward seemed a little scary. Now, to me he seems like the true meaning of beauty.(I fully aknowledge my weird taste...) Innocence labeled as evil. I wish things were that simple, but...

I also watched The Melancholy Death of Oyster Boy. I only bought my Oyster Boy T-Shirt because I saw 'Tim Burton' on it.. Kinda sad, yeah? I watched a stop motion video that told the story. It's sick, yet beautiful. Like anything Tim Burton has made.

I've also been watching this [link]AH4klqLTXg&NR=1&feature=fvwp It's super cute.

I'm also a little upset becuase of what happened in the past while... Let's see...
My dad almost slept through ANOTHER HOLIDAY. Oh right. I didn't tell you guys that he fucking slept through Halloween. I had to stay home from a party and take care of my mom. I was going to go trick or treating with some totally metal seniors from the anime club.

I was... well, not quite REJECTED. I have a crush on a boy in my journalism class, who is... This will sound terribly narcississtic, but a male clone of me.. Kind of. He's smart, slightly insane, loud, and he's TALLLER THAN ME~! He's not devious ike Jacob was though. BTW Jacob and I broke up halfway through last year. CHARIZARD YOU ASS. D:< AAANYWHORE... The guy I like, his name is Ben. Ben is awesome.

I had the whole thing set up... I went to a school play, he was SUPPOSED to work backstage that night since he's in theater backstage. I gave a note to this little BITCH that was holding the door open.

BEFORE YOU CALL ME A FUCKING IDIOT FOR ENTRUSTING MY FUTURE TO A STRANGER, LEMME SAY... I KNOW THIS GIRL FROM A LONG TIME AGO. SHE'S ONE OF MY OLD FRIEND'S SISTERS. The family has too many damn kids and they ALL have a mental handicap or down synd, even the mother. The father is narcoleptic. Unfortunately none of them remember me becuase I'm much different than I was. I went through a sort of phoenix transformation from geek to goth.

The girl said she gave the note to the theater teacher. When I saw him the next day I asked him and he had no fucking clue what I was talking about. I went to the theater teacher and she said SHE NEVER GOT THE DAMN THING!!

I made a new note and gave it to him. I panicked and ran away because I'm a coward

He talked to me the next day and he said yes AND no. Both becuase he 'didn't want to ruin our friendship.' WHAT A LOAD OF SHIT. I may not be interesting or pretty or a fucking cheerleader (peppy) BUT I HAVE FEELINGS!

Sorry I will continue this rant tomorrow chances are becuase My timer just went off. For those of you who don't know, my mom is a psychopathic BITCH and times me two holurs a day on the computer, even for homework!